Where to begin

So for the last 19 months I have been on a journey. It hasn't ended its only taken a new phase. When I started this journey, I found myself in a very low place. I was very unhappy even though I had everything I thought I really wanted in life. What began as a hope to the solution of being able to lose weight, began to bloom into much more. I was so unaware that the number on the scale I hated so much, effected my life in so many ways. The scale started moving consistently, like I had never seen before. My whole outlook changed. I felt better, I began to feel confidence in myself, and joy. I wont say its been easy, so many demons you face when you begin the journey to self discovery. However, It has not been as hard as I thought it would be, or decided it would be, thus me just giving up on myself. And I think that's what you really do, you give up on yourself, deem you not important, not worth the grit. At least that is what I did, I tried and failed countless times in my life, never seeing results I could manage to keep off. To quick to resort to old habits, to turn to food for comfort. I had made it an idol in my life, everything revolved around food, We woke up and began to talk about where we would go for dinner, thinking about what I would eat there. Only to get to that meal, eat it, and then not have any energy, to full, so full and uncomfortable all I wanted to do was go back home and sit on the couch and watch TV. Maybe this sounds familiar, or maybe it makes no sense to you at all. It was a vicious cycle, that was leaving me feeling hopeless. Where I started I never wanted to end back, because it was just such a low ugly space. So I decided it wouldn't happen. Maybe your asking yourself, is that all it really took? Well no, I wish it was only that simple, but if it was, America wouldn't be struggling with obesity the way it is. We have given food power it was never meant to have, we have placed in on a pedestal, thinking that every meal should be delectable. (Don't get me wrong I eat multiple times a day, and I think that everything I eat taste good) I'm not saying you can never have foods you enjoy, something that I am still trying to find balance with. However, stop and think, about how much of your life revolves around food, how many events, parties, meetings do you remember..... and what do you remember about them? The way a certain food tasted, how creamy soft the icing was on some cake from that one party. Or do you remember people? a way you felt, a memory you shared, a celebration? Shouldn't it be more about life and experience, then the way something taste? Rant over........ I didn't realize how bad I really felt until I felt better, and that better was better then I knew possible. So what is my point? Find a solution to your lack of health, and plan to get that extra weight off, stick with it, work at. Work on your mind, on changing your habits that led you to the place you want to get away from. Stay away from the kitchen, if you have to, go for a walk instead of eating that snack. Say no to eating the cupcake, I promise its very empowering to have power over food, and whether you eat it or not. Try it, I dare you. Choose you, Choose to enjoy life instead of just surviving through it. IT only takes one decision, keeping choosing health, eventually it becomes the first choice, the craved choice. I mean what do I know...... I'm just a former food addicted girl who weighed around 300 pounds for about a decade of my life.