I have been thinking about this topic a lot lately. I just wanted to share some thoughts on the subject that are very personal to me. For as long as I can remember I have feared eternity. I always said it was because I did not understand it. I was afraid of dying and what it does eternity really look like. I am christian, I don't use that term much, because it looks different to everyone, and some people have a bad taste in their mouth from other's who have claimed that title. But I say that to state that I believe when I die I will go to Heaven, a place of no more suffering, heartache, and plenty of other things that have to be better then Earth. Anyways, I still feared that.... it never made sense to me to be afraid of something that seemed so great.
In this last 8 months I have taken a much needed journey to health, for me that was something for a long time I have truly wanted, It was always hard to get to where I wanted though, so often I gave up or never even tried, but deep down truly unhappy with myself. I know this will be a life journey and I have reached the point where I feel I am in a truly healthy place, but I have sure climbed mountains and changed much more then I ever imagined was possible. So I've been thinking why do I not get the lump in the back of my throat anymore when I think about eternity? or when someone else mentions life after this life?
I believe its because I have found peace with myself. I'm not perfect, and would never claim to be, I find myself multiple times a day questioning myself and why I responded certain ways, or acted certain ways, or why do I have said attitude. I can look at my life and see things that I no longer struggle with, that I know were insecurity factors from not truly being happy with the person I was. However I encourage you to take the steps you need to take to become the best version of you. There is so much freedom to be found.
