Christmas Cheer

Some pics for your viewing!

Christmas was a success!

So I got a nikon d5100 for christmas. I have been taking pictures like madness. Reading blogs, watching videos, trying to learn whatever I can to become decent at photography. I purchased a new lens today, which I will hopefully have by this weekend, when I will be taking family pictures for my inlaws. When I get a chance I will upload some pictures. I am excited. Also Matt (my husband ) and I have started a blog! It's called Knotty Piners. It's kind of an inside joke. If you know us its probably not to hard to figure out! Here's a link http://knottypiners.blogspot.com/

We are going to put things that we make, or bake, or create on their. I hope you will check it out although there isn't a whole lot on their right now! We will be posting things soon though! :) As I did get a stand mixer and food processor for christmas I'm sure I will be finding things to use those for as well!

Social media is overrated.

I think this has been a long time coming. I have deactivated my twitter and facebook, with no intentions on reactivating them. I have many reasons, but senseless to discuss. I will still be blogging and pinning, because pinterest is just wonderful and gives me many things that I can bake and create. I want to spend more time making things, I find my heart is happiest doing those types of things. I also still have instagram which I will post pictures to as well. I have a cell phone still and email. So I am still able to be contacted quite easily. I didn't miss out on much before facebook came around so I think it's safe to say I shouldn't miss out on much just because I don't have one anymore. I actually think I might miss less. Just a thought!

Christmas is almost here. I am excited this year, probably because I made about 80% of the gifts I am giving away. It really makes it so much better! I am really excited to give them, and I hope that everyone loves them, as much as Matt and I have enjoyed making them. I will also be baking this week, as I am giving some sweets away as gifts. I'll have to post pictures of finished projects once they have been given, as I don't want to spoil the surprise! I am much more cheerful these days, in high hopes once more. Had a good conversation with someone that really brought my spirits up, even made an appointment with my doctor for next month. Feeling hopeful and excited for that. Keeping my fingers crossed, and my hopes alive.
Wishing everyone a Merry Christmas! Hope that its full of cheer and time with people you love!

Just when I think I'm getting better.

I'm sure my blogs lately are severely unlacking in the depressing department. I have to say that I thought I was moving forward once more. But I seem to be stuck in auto-drive. I have no desire to eat healthy, and lack motivation to do so. I am feeling my time with crafting, and family gathering for birthdays and Christmas things. I have hopes once the holidays are over I will be able to jump back into my routine, and  possibly cut some un-healthy things out of my lifestyle. At this point there really are no words to help, or make me feel better, and I still have no idea what I should do. I am lacking in the answers department. People trying to help only make me feel like crap, for my attitude, and feelings. I feel stupid myself for them so people pointing out there stupidness only makes me feel more dumb. I have decided that since what I want is to naturally help my pcos, that I will continue on the journey and only use medicine when necessary, as not to harm myself more. I just can't do doctors, its not what I want, and I am just afraid they are going to tell me what I don't want to hear, after my last experience which left me crying. So I press on the only way I know how. My eating crappy food that I make, and keeping myself busy. And hopefully this funk will pass sooner then later. That's enough honesty for the day. Enjoy.

Ohhh December.

You gave me hopes for things you did not deliver.
You brought me tears and frustration on days that should have been full of joy.
You let me have dreams and wishes that won't come true.
You dissappoint me and make me happy.
You make me smile and make me cry.
You leave me with disbelief.
Without hope.
I push through your busy bringing.
I make and bake and buy to get through this season.
I fake smiles, and avoid gatherings.
I pretend that I have it all together.
I avoid conversations.
I say things I don't mean.
I keep surviving the only way I know how.