Just when I think I'm getting better.

I'm sure my blogs lately are severely unlacking in the depressing department. I have to say that I thought I was moving forward once more. But I seem to be stuck in auto-drive. I have no desire to eat healthy, and lack motivation to do so. I am feeling my time with crafting, and family gathering for birthdays and Christmas things. I have hopes once the holidays are over I will be able to jump back into my routine, and  possibly cut some un-healthy things out of my lifestyle. At this point there really are no words to help, or make me feel better, and I still have no idea what I should do. I am lacking in the answers department. People trying to help only make me feel like crap, for my attitude, and feelings. I feel stupid myself for them so people pointing out there stupidness only makes me feel more dumb. I have decided that since what I want is to naturally help my pcos, that I will continue on the journey and only use medicine when necessary, as not to harm myself more. I just can't do doctors, its not what I want, and I am just afraid they are going to tell me what I don't want to hear, after my last experience which left me crying. So I press on the only way I know how. My eating crappy food that I make, and keeping myself busy. And hopefully this funk will pass sooner then later. That's enough honesty for the day. Enjoy.