Thoughts

I had a good talk with my brother last night. He is such a smart young man. I realize how stupid girls are. We tend to let ourselves like these jerky boys, who only use us. They tell us they only want to be our friend and then end up having a relationship with us without it ever being called that. Maybe it's our fault, my fault, for letting it happen. The dumb thing is that there are good, sweet, amazing boys that like us... and we get hung up on these losers who don't want anything more from us. What's even worse, is I find myself knowing that I am worth so much more, but not being able to walk away. I don't really know why either. It's rather frustrating. This is why I believe, at least for myself, that guys and girls were not meant to be friends. Even when I think that someone is no good, and I wouldn't want to be in a relationship with them, I find myself wanting them to want me, and being jealous when I find out they want someone else. Maybe it is because it just feeds my fear that I am not good enough. Hmmm, I think I answered my own question. I stick around hoping they will change their mind about me, so I can know that I am worth being with. I'm better then that... I deserve to have someone who realizes from the beginning what I'm worth, not someone that has to be convinced overtime. Everyone deserves that. I hope that other people can learn from my mistakes... don't give your heart to someone who doesn't want it, and doesn't deserve to have it. Stick it out and wait for the one who realizes what your worth, and knows that life without you would be incomplete.